Only about 8% of an iceberg can be seen above the water. It's amazing to me that as a ship travels across the ocean, what looks like a great big innocent ice cube above the water line could indeed kill everyone on board if the captain isn't paying attention.
Still, I have an iceberg that needs to be addressed. I could go around it, (I have been for years.) but it would still be there. And let's face it, I travel these waters called life every day and eventually it will do major damage. We all have character flaws, but what I am talking about is a character sin that continually keeps me from doing what God needs me to do. It keeps my heart from being completely malleable in my captain's capable hands. And, it has to be addressed.
Of course, I've known it's been there for a long time. I can see it...but only about 8%. This move to Oklahoma that has rocked my world for the past ten months, forced me to get off the boat. Yes, into the freezing waters where I could look under the surface. See how big this thing is.
Good heavens. Big. Huge. Ginormous. And not in a good way.
I really don't know what to do about it yet. I see it. It's bigger than me. Not bigger than God of course, but WAY bigger than me.
Can I get back on the boat? On my deck chair and read a book? =)
No, I can't. Now that I know it's enormity and God wants it to be dealt with, ignoring it is out of the question. Five million more questions have popped up in it's place.
And, I'm not going to share what all of this is. I really need to be focused on Him. I need Him.
God is my captain. I'm glad he's paying attention.