Monday, April 30, 2007

Praying for Heather

Kelli at Living in Grace has started a prayer group or chain or whatever you want to call it for Heather specifically regarding her brain surgery on Thursday. I have been praying for Heather and her family daily since she received the news of her tumor.

Won't you please join us in prayer for her on Wednesday and for the following seven days? If so, leave a link at Kelli's blog and a comment on Heather's.

I Got A New Look Y'all!

The only downside to my beautiful new design care of Susie at Bluebird, is that I can no longer change things in my template. I happen to not be very hip on the HTML code stuff. So, if I don't have you on my links, it may now be a while before I figure it out.

The thing I love most about this skin is without even knowing it, Susie captured one of my most favorite things to do. Sit outside on a beautiful day, under a tree, drinking my sweet tea, reading magazine with a few friends and watching our kids run themselves into exhaustion. That's what I call a little piece of heaven on earth.

Thanks Susie!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

One Good Turn...

deserves another! Gotta have my second littlest joy on here too!

We're trying to grow her bangs out. It's gonna be a long summer folks.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

The Littlest Joy in My Life

I'm terrible at taking pictures for just random events or having pictures made of me and the kids or even Terry and the kids. So this past weekend I put Reese in my lap and just played around and got this picture. I actually like it (except that I am in desperate need of some lip balm.)

I couldn't get Mini-me to participate so I'll have to post something of her later.

Hope everyone had a good weekend. I had such a good one I haven't even looked at Google Reader and am now about 100 posts behind on blogs.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Happy Birthday

To my wonderful husband! I love you and hope your day was Las Vegas. =)

Monday, April 16, 2007

A Big Fat Texas Thanks!

In regards to this post, I just wanted to say Thanks to all of you who commented and the many of you who emailed me personally with notes of encouragement and support. You will never know what it has meant to me.

Just putting what I was going through into words and "out there" did me a world of good. You guys are bloggity gems, I tell ya, Bloggity Gems!

So Who Wouldn't Want a Coach Bag?

Even more importantly, who wouldn't want a FREE Coach bag? So, this is my entry post. Let's all have a moment of silent prayer so I will win. (Closing eyes, head bowed.)

Thank you. I now return you to your regular blog activity.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007


Almost daily someone will ask me how I'm doing with all of the changes going on. I usually respond with, "Every thing's great!" I explain that I miss my friends and family in Dallas, and the free time I used to have, but all things considered, we're doing very well.

But, truth be told, this has been one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. And frankly, yesterday just sucked. I had lunch with a new friend yesterday. (That part was great, just to be clear.) But, for the first time I think I really started to move to Oklahoma. Physically, I've been here for three months. Going through the motions, wearing a smile and trying like the dickens to not complain to God or anyone else how much this hurts. Mentally however, I've been living in Dallas. And Spiritually? A bit numb. Afraid to really talk to God in fear of what else He might ask of me.

When T became the campus pastor for the Downtown FC campus several years ago, I grieved...hard. I realized very quickly I was grieving the death of the plans I had for our lives. All of them. Where we planned to move, in what environment we planned to raise the girls, who I hung out with was all changed, different, gone. But, I adjusted. I'm very "go with the flow" 90% of the time. I still got to see my friends when I wanted and visit on the phone ad nauseum. We had a fabulous home with gorgeous trees and the girls and I just continued to live in our little care free world. It never occurred to me that an even more radical change was going to happen in such a short period of time.

Then God asked. He asked me to support my husband in a way I never have, train my children in a way I never have, and experience an alone-ness that I have never felt. At that moment, when He first asked, I thought, "Sure, why not? I kind of need a change." I don't think I truly was expecting what was behind God's door # 3. The moving, the going back to work, the putting my kids in childcare for the first time ever, the leaving...the leaving...the leaving.

So, here I sit. In the reality of grieving again. A dark cloud has been over me for the past month. It's weird. I certainly don't hate living in Edmond, and I don't really miss Dallas as a whole; I've just hidden what ever I have been feeling in a walled up numbness. Until yesterday. Yesterday, it hit; I was in pain.

Terry has been listening to Marc Driscoll a bit lately on Nehemiah. He said there is no progress in God without pain. I've been running from it. I was happy to do His will as long as I didn't have to feel that pain. On the flip side of that, I knew I couldn't stay numb forever. God knew it too. He knew I would eventually come out from under my cloud completely exposed to the what was around me. And, it hurts. I know I have to let go of what my life was, (even typing that literally makes my heart hurt) and embrace what God has for me and my family here. I trust Him and feel like running from Him all at the same time. I know He has immeasurably more for me that I can imagine if I just let Him have my life.

Why, even as someone who has been a Christian for a long time, is it still so hard?

So, for those of you who know me well, please just pray that God will reveal to me what His plan is here for me. Not as a wife or mom or teacher, but as His servant. It's time to say "Yes" to all of His plan no matter what it may be.

**On a side note, I know what I am going through pales in comparison for those who are fighting for their lives and need our prayers (cancer, kidneys, etc). Please know I understand how blessed I am in my life.

Sunday, April 08, 2007

My Favorite, but not Most Reverent, Easter Story

When Mini-Me was 3 we made out annual spring pilgrimage to Sweetwater to see my mother in law. While there, she was introduced to Peter Rabbit, the Beatrix Potter story as well as Peter Cottontail the animated classic from when I was a child. She loved both.

One day after we came home a very naked child streaked through the living room, whipped her shiny hiney around, wiggled it back and forth, and said, "Look Mom, I'm Peter Cottontail!" And in between her sweet little butt cheeks, she had placed a rolled up ball of toilet paper.

I would give my left arm to have a video of that moment.

And on that note, Happy Easter to you all! How sweet is our Lord that he gives us such precious things to remember and smile about for years to come.

Friday, April 06, 2007

April 6, 2007

Good Friday


Tuesday, April 03, 2007


I just received a spam type email that said "Ready to lose those unwanted pounds?" in the subject line.

I simply replied...

"I don't know, are you ready to make all of my super healthy meals and exercise for me? If so, I'm in."

Then I hit send. =) Some days being a total smarty pants just makes me smile.