Friday, April 28, 2006

LBY: Week #5: Peace: It's Not About Me

"At about four o'clock in the morning, Jesus came toward them walking on water. They were scared out of their wits. "A Ghost!" they said, crying out in terror.
But Jesus was quick to comfort them. "Courage, it's me. Don't be afraid"
Peter, suddenly bold, said, "Master, if it is really you, call me to come to you on the water."
He said, "Come ahead."
Jumping out of the boat, Peter walked on the water to Jesus. But when he looked down at the waves churning beneath his feet, he lost his nerve and started to sink. "Master, save me!"
Jesus didn't hesitate. He reached down and grabbed his hand. Then he said, "Faint-heart, what got into you?"--Matthew 14:25-31, The Message

Can't you almost hear the tone in Jesus' voice? It reminds of when I hear Reese crying because she thinks I've disappeared so I chide her, "Silly goose, I'm right here!" And so it is with him; he's right here. As I mentioned in last week's post on Joy, I've had a pretty easy life. It's easy to be at peace when things are going well, I think.

However, I can remember the time I was most at peace, and it was during one of the most traumatic experiences in my life--when Terry and I lost our first baby to miscarriage. (Thought I was going to say my toddler overdosing on excedrin didn't you!)

I remember that moment in my life like it was yesterday. I don't remember the pain at all, but I can feel the peace still. Knowing that God was in control and the baby was his, not mine, anyway. Literally, I could feel people praying for me and then the peace just washed completely over. Ever since then I have felt it in every day life, but it becomes so overwhelmingly apparent when I go through something big, like Reese taking a whole bunch of little red grown up pills that look like Skittles--just for an example. I knew what his peace felt like, and I trusted Him even though I really wished we weren't going through all of this, and waited for it to wash over me again. It did. (Of course it didn't help that the ambulance driver is pushing her through the children's ER on a gurney shouting, "Your accidental overdose is here!" I tried desperately to follow that up with "It wasn't an illegal narcotic or anything!" so I didn't look like the worst mother ever.)

Where was I, oh yeah, Peace! Sometimes we all forget who's in charge and begin to look at our circumstances and start to sink like a bowling ball in quick sand. It's comforting to know that Jesus is right there with love, holding out his hand to us saying "Silly goose, what got into you? Can't you see I'm right here?"

**I am terrible at this LBY thing that is supposed to go at the end of each post for you to click on and read more interesting and more well written posts than mine, so please see the sidebar portion labeled "Other LBY Bloggers" and check out some fantabulous thoughts on peace.


Janna said...

One of my favorite passages on the peace of God or faith is the one you showed here. It reminds me of the book "If You Want to Walk on Water You've Got to Get Out of the Boat". Easier said than done, huh, to keep our eyes on Jesus and totally trust Him through our storm of life?

~Patricia~ said...

Keeping our eyes on Jesus instead of our circumstances sure seems to be key, doesn't it? As Janna said, "easier said than done". The thing is that we have to sink a few times before we remember, but even then, Jesus is right there ready to pull us up before we go under. He is so good to us!

Addie said...

One more thing we have in common...Ben and I lost our first child in miscarriage also. I hadn't thought of it, until your post, but I think that was a real training ground with me, in trusting God and gaining peace. And really learning a bit of how to grieve and yet still feel his peace.

And I love the idea of God saying "Silly goose, what got into you? Can't you see I'm right here?"

Thanks Robin, I loved reading this!

BooMama said...

There is NO TELLING how many times Jesus has called me a silly goose. :-) I love how you describe peace "washing over" you - because that really is how God's peace works, isn't it? I experienced that very thing today - and was amazed by His faithfulness once again. Thanks, Robin, for your insight.

Blair said...

Thanks for sharing Robin. I am so sorry for the loss of your little one. We also lost our first child ((HUGS)). To have peace in the midst of such a thing really defies all logic doesn't it :o)

Oh and I'm a silly goose alright lol! too funny!


flipflop said...

Oh my goodness you are great at blogging on these lby posts. I enjoy every one.

Lora said...

Thank you for your words of encouragement. I am so glad I stumbled upon your blog today. I am also a stay at home mom of 2 that is trying to grow in my relationship with the Lord. Keep up the great work for the kingdom!

ps- you're absolutely right about the power of dum dums! they are a life saver for me at the doctors office with my toddler! :)