Monday, October 31, 2005

Internal Betrayal

As most of you know, Terry and I have had the house on the market since he became the campus pastor at Fellowship Uptown. For the most part I feel very positive and upbeat about the whole thing, even though two of my very good friends who live around the corner also have theirs on the market. I wish we would all receive offers on the same day, but I know that is virtually impossible due to the market in Corinth. But I digress...

I am absolutely positive moving to Dallas is God's plan for our family. I say with my mouth, "God is in control of all of this." I don't feel worried in my spirit about it at all. But my body is betraying my mind and my heart. I have started grinding my teeth more and more at night; causing headaches. I have a knot in my shoulder blade area I can actually see, and my sleep patterns are way off. Also, I could just cry at every turn--wait, maybe that's just PMS. ;)

So, why, when I feel so okay with everything spiritually and emotionally, am I physically falling apart? I am tired of praying about this and know when we do sell, I'll have a whole new list of stresses.

Until then I will just remember my favorite verse. It seems to do the trick on almost all occasions:

Phil 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

I have followed the above instructions. I believe God's word to be absolutely true. All I can do is wait for His answer.

9 comments:

Addie said...

I feel your pain! I've been thinking about Is. 26:3 alot lately. "You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You."

I've been keeping you in my prayers. Thanks for updating us too, I was wondering if there had been any movement.

Leslie said...

Robin, I know selling and moving and buying and closing are stressful. I am praying for you now.

theresa said...

You know friend, I have been there and done that...so I can truly say "I know what you are going through!" I pray that God will give you a calm heart.

BTW - Not to add to the stress but remember all of your plans are pending on mine so PLEASE keep me updated!! Smile.

praynlady said...

Robin, I am also stressing about our move. Although we are not ready to put our house on the market, we are already in the process of moving. We are fortunately buying my inlaws home so as they move out, we are moving in. We are buying from them so all we have to worry about is selling and closing on ours. My problem is that it will be ready to put on the market around Thanksgiving and I've been told that people will not buy houses that close to the holidays because they want to be settled in for Christmas. I know this is probably not making you feel better but I wanted you to know that I have been praying for your house to sell as I pray for the funds to put mine up so that it too will sell. I firmly believe that God will send the perfect family looking for the perfect house for them and when they come to yours they will know it and so will you. God is perfect and merciful, I will pray for His mercy on your teeth too! heehee God Bless, Hugs, Colleen

Julia said...

Trust in God and give yourself permission to be anxious at the same time. It's perfectly normal to be stressed, did you know that moving house is one of the most stressfull times for a family? Just bless your house and say out loud "God will send a perfect family who will buy our house and love living here". Say it out loud and don't feel foolish just make sure nobody can hear you if you do. God Bless you and you are in my prayers too.

Robin said...

Thank you guys so much! It so wonderful to feel covered in prayer. Especailly when I feel about prayed out on this particular issue. It never ceases to amaze me who God brings in to comfort you when things are stressful--esp people I have only met in cyberspace. You are all gems in my book!

Amanda said...

We just sold our home in Little Elm (by Frisco) over the Summer. We are now back in bedford close to everyone, grandparents are good to have!! The market in our area was horrible because you can build a brand new home for less than what we were asking. Long story, short! We KNEW God wanted us to move! Our home sold in three weeks but we had to take $8,500 to closing just to get out of it! We still don't understand anything except that we KNOW we are in teh right place. Since I am the stay at home mom, I had to do all of the business stuff. Meet with realtor, call phone compnay, electric compnay, mortage, everything! I lost hair, sleep, began to have ulcers in my mouth, etc. It was awful but God kept showing me through that entire ordeal that He would work everything out, everything! Finally, three days before we closed, I let go! Your body always shows what your mind is battling. I thought that I was trusting God to work everything out, but my body told me something different. Just know that it will ALL work out. Living in limbo sucks! I understand everything you are going through. I also know what it is like to have a house on the market for three months and not have an offer. I began to walk through my home and pray for the people that were going to buy our house. I started writing a letter to the future buyer about the soil our home was built on. While it was being built, my husband and I would go out there and pray over it and speak blessings over our home and children we had yet to have. So a great thing to prepare you for this move is to begin praying for the family that will buy your home. May God sell your home and give you peace QUICKLY!

PEZmama said...

Hey, someone recently encouraged me with the same scripture that Addie quoted. It's good stuff.

You know, I was thinking... so you can take this with a grain of salt... but I don't think that physical signs of stress are necessarily indicators that you are somehow not trusting God. Your circumstances are stressful, and your body is taking all of that on. It doesn't mean you don't trust God to provide or that you are worried.

My two cents.

Lori

Robin said...

Lori, you know I was thinking about it while trying to relax in a hot shower, and Jesus came to my mind. Not that my situation compares to His at all-but, when he was in the garden on the verge of being carted off for cruxifixion(sp?), he was under so much stress he was sweating blood. I sometimes forget that Jesus really experienced anything I could possibly be going through. It was such a comfort to remember. Esp since I know he was in God's prefect will and his body was showing the signs of the stress. Really, what would we do without the scripture to go to when we need that encouragement from God?

Thank you Lord!