As I was getting ready last night for Terry and my date night I looked in the mirror and thought about what I was like when I was half my age. Wow! I was different. Not only on the outside, but inside as well.
With age comes a very changing body of course, my body is, well lets just call it fuller! My face is showing signs of age like wrinkles and larger pores. I can't get back in shape in two weeks like I used to. Of course, back then I thought 110 pounds was out of shape--what a hoot.
The thing that I like most about growing older is what has happened to me on the inside though. My self-esteem has always been lacking. I could go back through my childhood and try to figure out why, but really that is just a waste of time. What matters now is God has changed my life, and over time I have become so much more comfortable with who I am and the physical body God has given me.
With a fuller body came two beautiful girls who give me more joy than I could imagine. My face is showing those wrinkles and laugh lines because I LAUGH and have joy in my day with Terry and the antics of a 3 1/2 year old and 11 month old. I can't get back in shape in two weeks mostly because my metabolism has just slowed so much, but also because I don't have time to just focus on me, me, me anymore.
My live has evolved and changed into so much more and I love it. So far, it is definitely better to be 34 than 17!!!
**This post is dedicated to my friends Lidna and Amanda who put up with me when I was 17--and have ever since. Love you girls!