My feeler is still off today, but my knower better. It's funny how you can have feelings that are you know are not in line with God's best for you--non-righteous anger, insecurity, or jealousy. Sometimes feelings are due to the uncontrollable. Hurt from betrayal. Sadness from a loss. We can't always control what we feel, but we can control what we do with those feelings.
I experienced a flash bout of insecurity this week. Massive FOMO which led me to start manipulating for an outcome I thought was best for my kid. An outcome, for the record, I'm pretty sure my kid didn't care about one bit. The Holy Spirit interrupted me mid "problem-solving" text. "Think you could pray about this for one second?" Ugh. Sure.
After a conversation with God about my insecurity, I was challenged to weigh my feelings against what I know about Him, His character, His word, His promises. He reminded me He had a plan and it was good. Also, He wasn't going to share it with me until it was time. And you know what? I did NOT feel better after that convo. I like to know and be assured of future success. He didn't give me that.
I didn't feel better but the prayer allowed the Holy Spirit to kick my knower into high gear. I still don't feel better, but I know better. That is enough for today.